Well...

Last night did not go as expected. I got very overwhelmed, which was intensified because I was sooooo tired!  I had worked so hard on my Internship stuff over the last month, perfecting everything (40+ pages, 9000+ words, and several artifacts, plus 2 BIG projects) that I think my mind and body gave up on me. So...at 11:30pm after trying to work on my Capstone project I gave up...set my alarm for 2:45 (Jacob decided to wake me up at 2) and pretty much freaked out!  I felt so overwhelmed, felt like crap, that I just decided it wasn't going to happen.

At 3:30 after much debate, decided not to stress my mind or body out anymore. Just to postpone my presentation and take the next month (thanks to my very generous professor) to finish up on my capstone. The bad part of this is that I won't "graduate" until next May now.  Oh well!!!  I think my sanity is okay with that!  I'll know that I "graduated" prior to then. I'm disappointed in myself, but yet, I'm still proud of myself!

I'm going back to work next Monday. Jacob has his 2 month appointment tomorrow (Feb 1st), then he's doing a 1/2 day on Thurs and Fri at daycare. I'll be back to 4-10 hour days, so I'll have some uninterrupted time to work hard on that capstone. Still wanting it done, but wanting to give it the credit it deserves! 

THEN...I'll still have both kids going full time to daycare, and I'll take my day off to CLEAN!!!  This house is a disaster with two little ones, a daddy chasing after both of them while a mommy finishes up her schooling. I'm actually excited to start cleaning. I really want to organize and declutter. I just hope I have that stamina once I get the chance.

Once again...thank all of you who have supported me through these last 4 years of grad school.  I couldn't have done it without you. Especially Steve, Mom and Stacey. You guys really helped cheer me on, amongst others, but you listened to me cry and doubt myself and still stood by supporting me and I seriously can't thank you enough.  However, if I get that wild hair up my butt in the near future about doing more degrees...PLEASE TALK ME OUT OF IT...at least until the kids are in school and my loans are paid off ;)