I hate when I get into a mode of nerves, worries, fears. My mind just won't stop!
Today the kiddos went to Grandma and Grandpa Peterson's for some fun and excitement away from their boring parents. I was going to do my best to get my last paper finished and my presentation to go with it. However, then I starting thinking. About EVERYTHING!!! I hate when I do that!
I started worrying about money. About cleaning. About sleep or lack their of. About anything and everything. The bad part is most of it, I can't really do much about it. So...why am I stressing? I blame genetics!!!! Grandma Lewis is known to go to bed around 9pm. But she's almost always up around 2-3 because she starts worrying about something. Then rarely gets much more sleep until she finally gets up around 5-6ish. Pretty sure my mom does the same thing and maybe Stacey.
I just hate thinking about costs of daycare, my student loans, mortgage, trying to keep everything squared away and stay above water. It will work out...I know it will, but I still worry.
I even called my mom. Didn't say anything, but for some reason just hearing her voice makes me realize that I'll be okay. :)
Sorry...weird post! Don't worry, we are fine, but I.WORRY.TOO.MUCH! (and I didn't get my paper/presentation finished :( and too tired now...from unnecessary worrying)
Ugh Megan! Things will work out! And yes most of what you are worrying about are things out of your control. I hope you said something to mom and didn't just prank her. (I'm giggling) She does read your blog, so she will know who the heavy breather was, but won't be able to comment since her computer skills render her mute here. :)
ReplyDeleteI do wake up at least once a night, but not usually about worries (sometimes, yes, but not usually). I'm old and my joints ache. And I have insomnia.
Sometimes it helps me to write down the things going through my head, just to release them to the universe. Do some praying. That always helps too. God does have control and realizing that is the biggest help. You have to believe He knows what he's doing, even if you can't figure out what that is. Look for signs from Him, because I have found that if you don't listen, he will keep hitting you over the head with them.
Enough Sunday school for a Saturday night. Figure out what works to relax you. Trishka massage? Hot bath? Bit of wine? A good cry from a chick flick? Plan that for sometime this week. Then find some time to finish that crap. :) You will feel so much better when that is done. Love you!
I'm laughing so much right now! Yes, I did talk to mom! Oh...and talking about pranking...You CANNOT prank Grandma Lewis anymore (not that you did), but she has caller ID :) She answered the phone when I called on Thursday "Hi, Megan!" and it was off my CELL PHONE! hahaha!!
ReplyDeleteThanks for your advice! I'm trying to do all that you said. One of my worries, not that I really care too much about it, is my last paper/presentation. It was a bad experience/class and I just want to get a grade and be done with school!
Once Wednesday is over that class will be over and I can start concentrating more on other fun/helpful stuff.
Noted. No more pranking Grandma Lewis. :)
ReplyDeleteShoot....so I should stop the heavy breathing calls now too?! Darn...gotta find someone new! ;) And you can call me for a massage. I will find time to fit you in! Just let me know! :) Or even a play date!
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